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I want you guys to tell me if I was abused. I want you guys to finally answer that for me. Looking at the articles and facts I know I was but no one seems to agree or give a damn. I keep thinking that if I have physical scars... It might change their minds... Cause no matter what I do... My mom won't believe that my brother hurt me...

Life was peachy for me until about 3rd grade. I began a new school and got bullied unlike my old one. My brother began getting mean and picking fights with Mom. Dad worked late to help get some money and my brother liked to yell at me and Mom for anything. I didn't make the toy tractor turn right, my hair smelled weird, I couldn't lift heavy objects, I was fat, I didn't know the difference between nuclear fusion and fission etc. all of this took place from when I was 8-13 or so. Most people tell me everyone gets teased and every sibling picks on the other... But this was constantly. No matter what my parents did he didn't stop. Apparently he'd even hit Mom, throw things at Dad and stuff. I was always being dragged around as they brought him to doctors. He's bipolar meaning his moods change with the wind. He's yell at me for not staying outside with him even though I spent the whole day with him. He'd yell because I didn't understand science (bear in mind... I was 8...) and so much more. When he was nice he'd taught me how to swing and ride a bike. We'd dig a hole to China and try to make our own pool... But he stopped that. Mom's new argument is that he's so much better now and rarely fights (he still does....) and its the past and I need to drop it. Yeah... It's hard to drop the fact that he chased me through our the house and my Dad rammed into him saving me before Mom took me into the car and our of the house. It's hard to forget that I'd have to defend my mother while he yelled at me calling me a slut or any other word he found appropriate for me. It's hard to forget Mom's crying face knowing I had to dry those tears cause Dad wasn't around. My brother would wait until Dad went somewhere cause he knew us 2 were weak.... I try to agree to disagree with Mom and just tell her "ok love him whatever just please don't mention him near me" and she'll agree but sometimes she'll tell me screw it and that she can't pick me over him. I'm not saying that just... Please keep him away from me! I hate him! I hate him! He makes me think I'm nothing and I'm useless and I believe it! I'm dumb enough to believe it! But if I did reach all of his ridiculous standards he'd still find something. I hated farming his fields listening to him talk like he owns the world but if I didn't he'd find me and torment me. It's nothing though right? Just what a brother does (Callic never treated Basalt like that....) They'd do that at school too... People always find things wrong with me... I never know who's wrong, me or them. I never know! It's not like I can call a friend and ask. What friends?! I want Evy! He'd tell me how wrong I am! He'd let me know all the good I've done! ...I don't know if they're wrong... Or if I'm just a wuss

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About the whole sibling thing, I've been there. I'm still there, actually. My younger sister (by 2 years) was my best friend when we were little. When I was six, my youngest sister was born. My youngest sister really hated me growing up, even when she was a baby she didn't like me. She was always hanging onto my younger sister, which means that I didn't get to spend as much time with her. The littler one was overbearing and "protective" of my younger sister. One time, when my youngest sister was at least 3, we went to my cousins' house in NYC. My youngest sister left the room for a minute, I went over and held my younger sister's hand ('cause little girls do that :heart:) and the next thing I know, my youngest sister's hands are around my neck, throttling me. She had me on the ground pretty quickly, and my dad was somehow able to get her off, thankfully. She does still hit me occasionally, and kick me, but at least she doesn't bite anymore. Now she just verbally abuses me every chance she gets. She talks back to my parents, and she's extremely disrespectful to everyone, ESPECIALLY her "favorite" sibling. And what's worse is she doesn't really get in trouble for it that much. My mom spoils her because she's the youngest and we have to be patient with her and when we were that young we had each other, and we're so much older than her now, and my mom was the youngest in her family, so she knows how she feels, etc. I'm just thinking, "She shouldn't be allowed to be this nasty." She gets more than the rest of us and does more bad things than the rest of us. She's so antagonistic it's not even funny. :turbopoke: Anyway, all this to say, I know how it feels and if you ever need to talk about it, I'm here for you! :heart: And, I think that what you went through most certainly counts as abuse. It has scarred you, in more ways than one, and that most certainly counts. (BTW is your brother older or younger than you?) I think that you are a wonderful person and we love you! :heart: :hug: :huggle: :cuddle: Just keep on keeping on.